Three years ago today I started this blog.
This is what I was writing about three years ago. Looking back, man I am proud of those posts. Those anecdotes were piling up inside my head and are the reason why I started a blog. I am so glad that I've had a place to write everything down because, even now, just three short years later, there is so much I've forgotten.
The thing I remember most about that time was how proud I was to be a mother. Not that I'm not now, but back then I had a beautiful and brilliant toddler and another beautiful and brilliant child on the way. Life seemed easy, and maybe it was the hormones, but love seemed to be spilling out of me from every pore. I couldn't love/hug/kiss Bunny enough. I couldn't stop photographing her every move. Her beautiful blue-green eyes. Her quick smile. I would look at her and tear up, so happy that such a splendid child was mine.
Over the past three years, my blogging has changed. The things I write about now run the gamut from pop culture to politics and may not focus so much on parenting anymore. It's the way I want it to be. I purposely don't share the kinds of stories I used to write because I realized that I wanted to save them for my own children to read first. I don't post pictures as much because my kids are older and I want to protect their privacy. Also, the climate of personal blogging has changed over the past three years, and as a result, I'm not interested in sharing every detail about my life and my children's lives anymore. (Not that I ever did before, but you know.) I've learned that those details are too precious to share. They are for me only.
For about six months (and intensively since the start of the new year) I've been thinking about how much this blog has evolved and whether I should keep it going in this format. I've become more interested in other things like food blogging, working on my cookbook idea, and thinking about doing a project (not a blog) that addresses cultural identity issues. I'm certainly busier with work (doing what I love most in the world), and now that Bunny and Wallie are older, they require a different kind of attention. I've never felt like one of those bloggers that had to post daily or on a schedule. As it happens, most of the time it just turns out that way because I need a place to park and process my thoughts, but I could slow it down here... and probably will.
I've learned a lot over the past three years. For example:
- Blog your passion whatever it is.
- Mom bloggers are a powerful force. We are the influential "alpha moms"* that advertisers now covet. But let's not use that power to sell more vacuum cleaners, cereal, and face cream. We need to use our power wisely. Think of what we could accomplish if we did.
- Related to the above: Don't do other people's marketing for free and don't ever sell yourself short.
- I know more than I ever wanted to know about HTML.
- I don't ever want to write a book.* I love the immediacy of this medium. I am a blogger with no other aspirations except to blog. It's enough for me.
- My back is messed up and I may have carpal tunnel syndrome.
To all of you reading I'd just like to say, thanks for reading. Thanks for your beautiful emails over the years. I've received some amazing, "restore-your-faith-in-humanity-type" emails from people I've never met during these three years.
Thanks for your thoughtful and often hilarious comments that let me know I'm not alone (...in my hatred of the Beatles, yellow mustard, and pizza.). By the way, I do try to email you back if you comment, but I have probably missed a few of you over the years. For that, I apologize.
I haven't quite decided how CityMama will morph into the next thing. I'm thinking I'll wake up one morning and know what the right thing to do is. I make a lot of decisions that way. Until that moment, I hope you will keep stopping by.
Thanks for reading CityMama,
*But I love anthologies. :-)